I don't know why or what's with me that I always seem to be misunderstood or feel like I'm a useless person.It seems that I should just disappear completely or simply vanished.I just wish i could have this simple wish.It doesn't mean suicide or anything harsh but just that i feel so unsatisfied with myself with what I'm doing.Blogging and etc.Maybe I'm just not meant to be or act or do things this way.Or its just one of those damn mood swings I'm having.But to think again personally,i guess that's not the case.Just unsatisfied.I'm just simply tired to act as if I am happy & feeling wonderfully wonderful! But ....NOT! I just don't wanna feel as if I'm a "copycat" or a "copydog" in what I'm doing.But then again I'm tired to explain/asking to those around me if what I'm doing or what is the purpose of my blog is all about.I just feel no support.But it's ok.But I also wouldn't said that I'm fine or immune to these comments from whom i believe to be friends/buddies of mine.I just wanna share stuffs that's all! But as always,day by day it just feels like a bad crime.sucks! & honestly it's my first time trying to make it truly like a proper blog but wadda heck! Seems so pointless! & yeah if anyone out there happens to read this,be it any tom,dick or harry balls, u must have thought that "Hey Shut it Down then Dumb Ass!Delete it or something.Fly a kite or jump down n die!You are just so cliche' & so unoriginal!Boring to the farkin MaX!" Well,thanks anyway for the comments.But I will still continue just for my own pleasure n wanking purposes! But honestly,thanks for the "moral" support! & Don't worry,i will fuck myself like Marilyn Manson since i can't get any pleasure from all of what i have done.n Yeah I'm a fackin' moronic selfless being alive on this blog! & yeah,if this doesn't sound like me from my previous postings n etc to those who knows me personally or whosoever,just label me up as a copycat or whatsoever.I'm getting used to it.I look like a damn freaky zombie cursed to be less than ordinary anyway.YOU all are the ones special! Yea i meant well.No worries..